I can’t recognize this emotion.
& if I refuse it, I will search for it in every wrong place.
What I didn’t think was right, was more than right for you.
& in your absence, my selfishness is bright,
& I’m reminded of my selflessness.
What has kept me in the past?
It was you,
It was me,
It was Toxicity, my love for you, toxic.
& dangerously a part of me.